Monday, July 21, 2008
!^&@#&*!^Oh well. I dunno what happens to me. These few days, I feel emo, depress, loss of appetite. I've stop thinking too much. Yup thanks to them, and PH for the prayers. At least I've felt better. She felt like an older sister, although I am literally older than her -.-" Come to think of it, I'm a year older than my friends, but they are the ones looking after me. Duh!
But I still feel depress, which I dun understand. Dunno issit because of app3, for fear of unable to finish my garment.
Haiz..maybe this is one of the reasons I like gothic, emo; depress. It began when I'm having app2 and advance cad. Thanks to Vernon man, I was so stressed out at that time. We were suppose to do a mood board base on our own theme using magazine to scan in pics. Then I thought of my sis's J-rock, Visual Kei magazines, and I just use it, and Visual Kei will be my theme. That is when I found peace and happiness in myself when I see all those stuff, darkness, goth, vampire-like you know. And I enjoyed myself when doing the mood board. Then came a collection with three designs. I decided to do Gothic Lolita, which sparked the phenomenon in Japan by Visual Kei. Then yup, I was hooked until now. I now like my nails painted black, going to put on black colour lipstick when I bought one, apply thick dark eye liner. I won't be suprise if one day I went out with pale face, dark eyeliner, and lips, and bright red eyes, and everything I wear is black. Like mourning. Not bad, hmmm.....
